AHHHHHHHH!
I really think peoples fears are interesting. I dont mean funny interesting, I just mean...interesting. I have a huge irrational fear problem, so Im gonna try to narrow this list down...Things Im afraid of:1) Putting shoes on: Im terrified of poisonous spiders being in the toes of my shoes and biting my feet until I die. I always check my shoes.2) Bridges: Im scared that I will somehow lose control of my car and just drive off the edge. Im not scared of the bridge collapsing, just me driving off of it accidently. (this is the main reason I hate going to Pell City/Birmingham, because of the bridge with water alllll around it)3) Knives in any shape or form. Knives are really my biggest fear. I cant even pick up a butcher knife. I guess I think it will turn on me and stab me to death. I cut everything with a butter knife.4) Snakes: Im convinced that all snakes on earth are conspiring to kill me. I still think that one tried to kill me by chopping down this tree in my back yard with its deadly fangs...5) Big crowds---anxiety, panic..meeeeep!6) My gas stove---Im positive I will die by carbon monoxide!In case you are wondering...yes...Nathan DOES think Im a little bit crazy.
sicky sickerson--my longest entry yet!
My Valentine Day was less than great. I called my dad last night to tell him I was sick (more about that later) and he told me that his wife had left him. She just packed up all her stuff and left. He got home from work and said she and all of her stuff was GONE. She left a message on his answering machine saying that she was fine, but she couldn't be with him anymore and that her lawyer would be contacting him. He said it was because after Natalie was born, she started in on wanting a baby, and he said he was too old, etc. I feel SO bad for him..for both of them actually. My dad will be 53 on Friday, so he is too old for a new baby. His wife is only 35, so she still has time. I just feel BAD for him.
So yeah, Im sick. Yesterday I woke with a sore throat and drainage. So I ate some cereal, got ready and went to work at 11:00. It was kinda busy. After about 30 minutes, I started feeling yucky. I just felt "off". I couldn't tell what was wrong. After about another half hour I started feeling really light headed, my vision was fuzzy and my heart felt like it was going to bust of out my chest. I was helping a customer, and it was like torture just keeping on my feet. It sounds silly, but I felt like I was going to have a heart attack. Everyone at work started freaking out because *I* was freaking out. They had me lay down behind the watch case, and Angie took my pulse. It was 132! Which is super high. So Judy called my doctors office and told them what was happening and asked if I should come in and they said yes, come in immediately. When I got there they took my blood pressure, which was 128--the highest Ive ever had. And they took my pulse, which was 122, the highest Ive ever had. Ive gone there since I was a little kid, and the highest my pulse had ever been was 112, and that was in 1998. The nurse told me my pulse being that high was a concern, because I hadn't done any strenuous activities. I had basically been sitting or laying down most of the time at work. Then they took my temp. I had a fever of 102! I was so freaked out by being light headed and my heart thing that I didnt even REALIZE I had a fever. So they did a strep test which was negative, but I have some kind of infection. They took blood from my arm, and my blood pressure was so high that that after she pulled the needle out, blood kept coming with it. The blood filled an entire cotton ball before it stopped :( I started crying when that happened because I felt weak after they took my blood, and it scared me. They did an EKG on me, and Im scheduled for an echo-cardiogram on Thursday. I got an awful shot on my hip that made my whole right side burn and hurt. I could barely drive the car home it hurt so bad. I could hardly make it up my front steps.Im sure its mitrol valve prolapse..Ive never technically been tested for it, but my dad has & he was actually released from the military because of it. I bet since I had such a high fever, it made my heart go wonky. Its kind of scary thinking something could be wrong, but its about time I had it checked out. Ive had several episodes where Ive passed out, or nearly passed out, and now I can maybe find out why. My dad said the worse thing could be if I DO have mitrol valve prolapse, the valve that has issues could be infected, and that could be really bad.
Nathan was SO great yesterday though. I left work so quickly and went to the doctors office that I didnt get a chance to call him and tell him what was going on. Well he called work to talk to me, and they told him what happened. He freaked out and called me wanting to know what was wrong. I told him I didnt know, they were going to run some tests, etc. He LEFT WORK to come stay with me at the doctors office for THREE HOURS. Then he went to the store and got me soup and yogurt. By the time he got home, I decided I wanted popcicles so he went BACK to the store, without a complaint, and got popcicles for me. Then while American Idol was on, he made some mashed potatos for me. He didnt let me up from the sofa, if I wanted anything he got it for me. Its so nice to be taken care of!
How I Met My Valentine..
These pictures are some of the first ones ever taken of Nathan and I. There is also a "doodle" that he drew of us. The kiss picture is from August 2001, after we were 'officially' a couple. The group picture is from the first time Nathan hung out my friends and I. The pink heart picture is from my birthday, October 2001. Then the one with the drawing is when Nathan got his apartment with Ben.
Marie, you have inspired me once again to steal an idea from you. I thought it was such a good idea to write about how you met your Valentine.
Nathan started working at Ruby Tuesday a few months into 2001. I thought he was quiet----but cool. He seemed so different than all the other guys that worked there. He didnt seem to be concerned with going out and getting drunk, "hooking up with chicks" like all the other guys. There was a specific reason I never dated the guys at work. I remember Nathan wore 'A Clockwork Orange' shirt, and he had a really cool Frank Sinatra one. He drove a Diamanti that was a MESS on the inside. I dont know why I remember that :) He had a girlfriend named Emily, and I had just stopped seeing a real JERK. Nathan was like a breath of fresh air. He made me laugh constantly. He made work fun for me again. I remember one day when he was telling me some of the bands he listened to, and he named some that I thought no one but me had even heard of. Then I found out he actually lived on the same street as I did! We went a couple months being "just friends". We worked together every day, and he became like my best friend. We became so close that we could read each others minds. Work was NOT the same if Nathan was off. It was totally innocent. I had the biggest crush on him, but he had a girlfriend so I ignored those feelings. He was also five years older than me, so I thought he would see me as 'too young'. I had a group of friends that I always spent time with, we would always ask Nathan to go to a movie with us, but he never did. Little did I know, Nathan and Emily were *THIS* close to breaking up. (YAY!) Emily just took off one night and went to Florida without saying anything to Nathan. He ended up inviting some of us to his house to watch a movie. That night I realized that I had more than a crush..I saw Nathan as someone I could really see myself with. We stayed up until 3:00 am talking, we went to Hardee's as soon as they served breakfast. He was funny, and artistic. He doodled pictures for me while I was bored at work. He started hanging out with us, and all of our friends would say "Nathan likes you, I can tell", or "You two should just get together already!". We both denied that we had any feelings for each other whatsoever. Emily didn't like us hanging out one bit---but we were always in a group of friends. There was nothing shady going on, I was never even alone with Nathan. Still, she saw me as 'the other woman', and I guess she was right. I never tried to break them up..I just KNEW it would happen. I knew that Nathan and I were meant to be together and everything would just fall into place. Finally, Nathan and Emily broke up. Nathan moved into an apartment with our friend Ben, and we have pretty much been together ever since. We never actually had that relationship talk...we just went from hanging out and being best friends, to being a couple. It was such a smooth transition for us. We have definitely had our up's and down's, but somehow we have always worked out our issues, and we have become stronger for it. Nobody knows me the way Nathan does. I honestly think we are meant for each other. He is still the sweetest guy I know, even after almost five years of being in each others lives. He does things for me every day. And no matter how small, I try not to take these things for granted.
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE!
NATALIE!
Natalie is here! She was born today, at 11:38 am. She is 19 inches long, and she weighs 7 lbs 2 ounces. She is GORGEOUS. The battery was going dead on my camera, so this is the only picture I took that came out ok. She looks just like Julie. She is just this beautiful, precious thing. Julie was barely in labor for 4 hours.
